I've been in a Mood lately. With a capital M.
I know most of what's causing it. Some of those causes are less irksome than others, although the way I handle them seems to be the same, and by that I mean that no matter what the cause, I'm not necessarily handling my Mood well.
I wish I could be as unaffected as I'd like to be. But I can't, and for my writing, that's probably a good thing. I need emotion to write. Luckily, I'm full of emotion.
I am not always full of writing, though. This week I've gotten down some real gems. Solidified and fleshed out some new ideas. Gotten a better sense of who some characters are, and how Emerson relates to them and is affected by them.
But I have not written a chapter this week. I haven't been able to. I need that to change. I can carve out some writing time tomorrow, for sure, but will I feel solid enough to use it? Will I be too tired, too cranky, too interested in reading, too tempted to lay in bed or the bathtub and daydream?
It's a good news/bad news thing when I daydream a lot. It means my brain is fully engaged in the process of creating stories, and for a writer, that's a good thing. But I need to focus on Emerson's story right now. And when the life in my head sometimes seems more attractive than the life outside of my head, that's a red flag that something's not as right as it could be.
I'm an Aquarius. Dreaming comes naturally to me. But I've gotta find a break in the clouds big enough to allow me to write.